Frustrated... Lost...

I am struggling... I am so struggling...

Ever since I graduated, I've been lazy and have lost my motivation on achieving my goals. I feel like I am getting far away from my goals. I do not see any lights in the other end of the tunnel. I am lost and do not know where am I heading now... It seems like I am giving myself lot of excuses. I can't focus on what I am planning to do!!!

Why am I lost and frustrated? Well, this question is rolling through my head over and over again... People say "you need to realize where you're trying to go, and you need to know when you've arrived." Am I really know what am I going to? Where is my plan? How am I going to picture my future?? All these questions keep rolling over my head... I am struggling... I am so struggling...

I lost as I frustrated with life... I lost as I am losing my passion of what I am doing --> job. I lost as my plan does not work out as I thought. I frustrated as people are stabbing behind my back... I frustrated as my life is sucks... I frustrated as I could not focus on my study... I frustrated as I lost my motivation on everything... I lost and frustrated!!!!

Sometimes I feel frustrated on everything around me... feel like everything is crumbling down on me and can't even breath. I hate those feelings... Sometimes, I feel like I really need someone to be there with me... be my backup and get me through all these craps...

I think I really need some inspirations to bring back my energy. I need to develop a winning strategy and keep moving forward; set an aggressive goals and get back what I have lost these years...

Be aggressive!!! Be aggressive!!! Be strong!!! Be strong!!! I won't beat up by all these craps... I won't beat up by these people...

Everything happens with a reason, when you feel frustrated or down as you did not get what you want or you did not accomplish your goal... the point is do no let anything beat you up so easily... I keep reminding myself --> No pain, No gain... where there is a will, there is a way!!! I need to bring my energy back and find a way to get me out...

Life is full of challenges, ups and downs, good, bad, and the ugly... When you're at different stage, you will have to face different challenges, that's about life. It is all about the state of mind, I would be a happier person if I can learn to take it easy and think everything on positive side... but that's always easy to say than done!!

People used to say that "Expanding your vision rather than focusing on a defective stain, you will realize that you would be a happier person."

Sorry for all these craps I wrote... I have no ideas what I wrote... free lance...

October 10 ~ I've been lazy with my blog entries

Well, it has been awhile since my last blog entry. I've just been too lazy with my blog entries, I will making an effort to keep it up to date. Seriously, there is just so much of it, and it takes times to maintain it. It's getting a real task to update the blog now. That said, I am going to attempt to update it more frequently.

Well, new posts to come! Sorry for the delay... I have much to blog about these months. There is just so much things going on and not much time to post it here. I've been playing catch up ever since April...

Last week, I was shocked when logged into my blog and there was an error message pop out said my blog has been removed from BlogSpot. I was like "oh boy, what the hell is going on here??" There is no reason of removing my blog without notification. I was so pissed and I posted on Google forum and seek for help. Fortunately, I was be able to get everything back. The system recognized my blog as a spam and with illegal posting on it. That's really sucks.

Weather is getting cool and I can feel that winter is not far from us. We just had a potluck last week to celebrate mid-autumn festival. I think we are going to have another potluck at home to celebrate Lee's birthday next coming week.

In June, I went on to a business trip to Los Angeles, CA. for a business conference. I think I am not gonna post the pics here since I have done posting on my Facebook account. A week later, I traveled down to Orlando, FL for my own vacation. I visited Walt Disney world, Universal Studio, etc. Pics of these trips are posted on my Facebook account.

Last month, I got myself an iphone from Apple store. It is a gadget that dominated US cellphone market or even worldwide. I like it so far, as there are lot of apps I found are very helpful.



Here are some of the pics from iphone:

Last Friday, we went for Thai food at downtown Ann Arbor. It was delicious and we all like it so much. I think it is the best Thai Restuarant that we found so far in Ann Arbor.

Pad Thai

Red Curry Chicken

Bulletin Board in my office. You found more pics on it than Memos.
On Labor Day weekend, I traveled down to New York City and New Jersey to meet up with my cousin. Annie flew from LA to meet up with us, and we all had a great time in New Jersey. We had good Malaysian food, good time with kids. Most of the pics are already posted on my Facebook. I've been too lazy to update the blog here, so Facebook will be the good place to check out all the pics...

We've been Boston, Atlantic City (South New Jersey), New Jersey, Manhattan, Brooklyn, etc. I always feel go to be in NYC or New Jersey. I just love NYC...

I found that I've accomplished less than what I've planned, I've just been lazy this summer season. I took my GMAT exam, but the score was not good enough, so I planned to retake it sometimes this year.

I received my H1 approval notice, and I've confirmed to be home this coming Nov. I can't wait to be home as It has been almost three years not being home. I am getting more excited as it comes. I think I will have more things to do rather than just a relaxing vacation. Anyways, it's always nice to be home!!!

Easter Week, April 15

It's April 15, Easter Week.  First of all, HappY Easter Week!!  It has been awhile didn't update my blog.  If I am right, my last update was in Dec 2008!!  Oh my God, It has been months!!!

Way too busy to take pics and update this blog.  Sorry :P  Not much going on lately, just busy on my work and preparing for my GMAT, and be ready to get into my Master Program.  The weather is warming up and we all are ready for Spring.  

Lee's family traveled to Beijing and will be back next Saturday, so I will be on my own for the whole week.  No plan over the Easter Weekend, just stayed at home and did nothing!  It was boring!  I cooked over the weekend and it was fun~~ to the ladies out there, cooking is not that hard actually and it's interesting :P

I am doing well, considering what's happening recently in U.S economy, we all are working harder and trying to hang on :P  With the economy downturns and skyrocketing unemployment rate in MI, I am gald that I am still remainning employment status.  We all knew it's bad, but never knew how bad it could be.  So hanging there and never give up.

My PC was down couple months ago, that became part of the reason not updating my blog on time.  I now have my new PC from HP.  It's nice and I love it.  The only thing that I do not like is the Window Vista Operating System.  It has beautiful layout but I found it's not user friendly and I do not like it at all.  I bought the Window XP Pro and ready to downgrade, :p  

I paid a visit to New York City and New Jersey to celebrate my X'mas and New Year eve.  That was my first celebration with my cousins and their family in New Jersey.  It was a nice and wonderful family gathering.  I am looking forward to visit them in this coming Summer.  I stayed there around ten days and took tons of pictures.  Check them out in my Facebook.  I also visited Washington DC.  :P  I am planning to visit West Coast, Los Angles, or Boston next trip.  I will probably upload some pics from NYC, New Jersey and Washington DC. in my next posts.

No pic for today post, as I haven't been using my camera for awhile.  Just lazy to take pic lately, but I promise to get more pic next time:P  

HappY Easter everyone and will see you around next post.... wAHAha.... :P

Here comes the one and only, Amanda Lee, my adorable niece~~  Pics from her China Trip ~ Fuzhou...